Sometimes I approach God like a machine or a math problem.
"How does this work? What determines how it behaves?"
In many ways, God is pretty polite to me when I do this. He isn't a machine, but he is logical.
But then He'll throw me for a loop.
"It would make so much sense for God to give me this internship." I say, "It's exactly what I need. So WHY didn't He give it to me?"
He doesn't answer. And that's VERY FRUSTRATING because I want to know. I want to know.
However, let's think. What exactly am I asking? Why didn't the Creator and Sustainer of the bloody universe give it to me?
Possible Answers
*Perhaps He had a better internship planned for me.
*Perhaps another person needed it more than me.
*Perhaps it wasn't perfect for me at all.
*Perhaps the supervisor was a psychopathic serial killer who pickled his interns in huge jars.
*Perhaps He was leading to me to a totally different profession.
*Perhaps He needed me to be walking down main street at 10:16am in order to trip an Unsaved person who would then think about the eternal state of their soul.
*Perhaps He desired me to be in the administration office when it exploded, so that I could go be with Him.
*Perhaps He wanted me to accept a different, less perfect internship, with a supervisor who was considering dedicating their life to Christ but needed me to help them understand who God was.
*Perhaps this was only the beginning, and God would cause everything in my life to collapse into miserable oblivion so that I would see how much I need Him and become so much closer to Him that I wouldn't give a rip about any stupid internship.
In order to understand everything that happens to me, I need to comprehend the entire vastness of God's plan for the world.
Or, perhaps, I need remember all the times that He has proven himself faithful, understanding, and GOOD in the past.
Perhaps I will trust Him.
"How does this work? What determines how it behaves?"
In many ways, God is pretty polite to me when I do this. He isn't a machine, but he is logical.
But then He'll throw me for a loop.
"It would make so much sense for God to give me this internship." I say, "It's exactly what I need. So WHY didn't He give it to me?"
He doesn't answer. And that's VERY FRUSTRATING because I want to know. I want to know.
However, let's think. What exactly am I asking? Why didn't the Creator and Sustainer of the bloody universe give it to me?
Possible Answers
*Perhaps He had a better internship planned for me.
*Perhaps another person needed it more than me.
*Perhaps it wasn't perfect for me at all.
*Perhaps the supervisor was a psychopathic serial killer who pickled his interns in huge jars.
*Perhaps He was leading to me to a totally different profession.
*Perhaps He needed me to be walking down main street at 10:16am in order to trip an Unsaved person who would then think about the eternal state of their soul.
*Perhaps He desired me to be in the administration office when it exploded, so that I could go be with Him.
*Perhaps He wanted me to accept a different, less perfect internship, with a supervisor who was considering dedicating their life to Christ but needed me to help them understand who God was.
*Perhaps this was only the beginning, and God would cause everything in my life to collapse into miserable oblivion so that I would see how much I need Him and become so much closer to Him that I wouldn't give a rip about any stupid internship.
In order to understand everything that happens to me, I need to comprehend the entire vastness of God's plan for the world.
Or, perhaps, I need remember all the times that He has proven himself faithful, understanding, and GOOD in the past.
Perhaps I will trust Him.
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