It have always marveled at the impact that my father has had on me.
Most specifically, on my relationship with my God.
My History of the Christian Church class has finally moved on from Saint Francis, and today we watched a documentary on Martin Luther.
(I LOVE DOCUMENTARIES.)
Martin Luther had a father. His father had broken free from the confines of the feudal system and struck out on his own as a copper smelter. In those days, this was quite an accomplishment. Having succeeded in this, his greatest desire was to witness his son surpassing all his accomplishments by becoming a lawyer.
Martin Luther's father was extremely harsh to his son; he criticized every move his son made. All his hopes were tied up in this boy, and he was not about to let him fail. Nothing his son did was ever satisfactory. He could always have done better, he could always have excelled more.
And so, when he was old enough, Martin Luther left his home in Mansfield and traveled to Erfurt to attend the university there. He studiously gained his Bachelor of Arts and Master's degrees. (blah blah blah)
BOOM! On to the fun part!

Then, the same year he was to take his last steps into becoming a lawyer, Luther was engulfed in a furious thunderstorm. He was riding through the forest when the dark clouds blotted out the sun and swirled over the landscape. Lightning flashed and thunder rolled through the hills. Luther was terrified.
He begged God to spare his life. If God did not kill him in this storm, Luther cried, he would dedicate the rest of his life to the service of God.
Once the night sky had cleared, Luther set out immediately to become a monk. He dropped out of law school and joined the Augustinian friary in Erfurt, one of the most strict in the world.
Luther became obsessed with pleasing God and being granted salvation. He quickly became the most devout of all the monks in Efurt. He fasted more than he ate, he prayed constantly, he flogged himself, he even slept naked in the snow all night and there saw the grim fringes of icy death. It is said that he would confess his sins to the priest, take a few steps, and return with more to confess. He began to see God as a great judge, looking down on him and condemning him for his every sin. The debt of his wrongdoing, it seemed, could never be repaid.
I hope my point can be clearly understood.
Luther's initial understanding of God as a righteous judge of condemnation was rooted in his earthly father. His earthly father was a cold, dark hand pressing down on Luther's mindset. He was never appeased, always demanding more, and nothing Luther did could ever be good enough. This made it easy for Luther to see his Heavenly Father the same way. There was no atonement, no satisfaction in anything he did. God, to him, was never pleased.
Do not underestimate the impact of father figures on your view of God.
Most specifically, on my relationship with my God.
My History of the Christian Church class has finally moved on from Saint Francis, and today we watched a documentary on Martin Luther.
(I LOVE DOCUMENTARIES.)
Martin Luther had a father. His father had broken free from the confines of the feudal system and struck out on his own as a copper smelter. In those days, this was quite an accomplishment. Having succeeded in this, his greatest desire was to witness his son surpassing all his accomplishments by becoming a lawyer.
Martin Luther's father was extremely harsh to his son; he criticized every move his son made. All his hopes were tied up in this boy, and he was not about to let him fail. Nothing his son did was ever satisfactory. He could always have done better, he could always have excelled more.
And so, when he was old enough, Martin Luther left his home in Mansfield and traveled to Erfurt to attend the university there. He studiously gained his Bachelor of Arts and Master's degrees. (blah blah blah)
BOOM! On to the fun part!

Then, the same year he was to take his last steps into becoming a lawyer, Luther was engulfed in a furious thunderstorm. He was riding through the forest when the dark clouds blotted out the sun and swirled over the landscape. Lightning flashed and thunder rolled through the hills. Luther was terrified.
He begged God to spare his life. If God did not kill him in this storm, Luther cried, he would dedicate the rest of his life to the service of God.
Once the night sky had cleared, Luther set out immediately to become a monk. He dropped out of law school and joined the Augustinian friary in Erfurt, one of the most strict in the world.
Luther became obsessed with pleasing God and being granted salvation. He quickly became the most devout of all the monks in Efurt. He fasted more than he ate, he prayed constantly, he flogged himself, he even slept naked in the snow all night and there saw the grim fringes of icy death. It is said that he would confess his sins to the priest, take a few steps, and return with more to confess. He began to see God as a great judge, looking down on him and condemning him for his every sin. The debt of his wrongdoing, it seemed, could never be repaid.I hope my point can be clearly understood.
Luther's initial understanding of God as a righteous judge of condemnation was rooted in his earthly father. His earthly father was a cold, dark hand pressing down on Luther's mindset. He was never appeased, always demanding more, and nothing Luther did could ever be good enough. This made it easy for Luther to see his Heavenly Father the same way. There was no atonement, no satisfaction in anything he did. God, to him, was never pleased.
Do not underestimate the impact of father figures on your view of God.




